Room Change

So i just got an email this morning saying that my room assignment for next semester got changed. Now I am rooming on the same floor as my two best guy friends, and this guy whos been sorta trying to "get with" me. I don't know how I feel about this all. It will be weird because their floor is all close already, and now Im going to be an intruder.

Temporary

Coming home for winter break is a strange thing. Home life and College life are two very different things and living one means putting the other on hold. This has never really set in since I was living my College life for about four months with only a couple weekends at home. My highest problem is that I haven't completely divided the two and therefore while I'm living one life I have to think about how it will impact the other. Boys are the issue that arise the most. At home I have a guy that I generally always get with. We've dated on and off for about four years and when I come home we fall back into our old ways, the reason this is bad is because since we've never fully broken up, while I'm at school I still feel a connection and like I owe him the courtesy of telling him if I get with another guy. I know for a fact that if I ended up getting a boyfriend at school I would feel like I cheated on him.

The strange thing about winter break is that this guy and I have decided to be sort of like a temporary official couple. This is cool because then I don't have to feel like we are just friends with benefits, even though I am aware that we are way more than that. Maybe at the end of this break he will want to end things permanently and officially. I know I would be heartbroken but honestly it could be for the best, however I will never end it with him, because I do love him and don't want to let someone as great as him get away.

As for now I am living my home life, which I suppose is know my temporary life. It's the strangest feeling when your house is no longer your home.

Winter Break

Winter break is suppose to be chill and relaxting and yet in the past three days I have never felt so sick to my so sick to my stomach. With discovering that my sister has been self harming, my parents constantly look on the verge of a break down and I always am. I hate beingin my house and Im using reading, working out and my..boyfriend? as a distraction. I went to this guys house tonight after discovering my family had taken my sister to the hospital while I was at work. Unable to handel seeing my parents trying to hold it all together I decided I needed to leave and took the guy up on the invite to come over, since he knew how upset I was and how much I didn't want to go into my house.
He was super sweet the entire night and when I was leaving he said he wanted to date me, but realized it was dumb to get serious again since I'm leaving in a month to go back to school. Basically he said the wasnt going to be getting with any other girls, and that he was going to introduce me as his girlfriend because it was alot easier than trying to take the time to explain us to people. I'm okay with that. I need him now more than ever so I'm perfectly fine being his girlfriend while I'm home.

Just Killing Time at the Library

Super bored, just killing time in the library between getting out early from my exam and meeting up with a friend for lunch. I really do love this only one class a day, but since i rarely do shit on this campus and I dont have car I get really bored and feel like I"m wasting my day away. Theres only so much How I Met Your Mother or The Hills that I can watch on netflix. I really just want these exams to be over, and yet I think to myself, once these Exams are over what am i going to do anyways? Work. Maybe lamely hang with some friends because we cant really party back at home because our parents are ridiculous. I'll probably lay around bored and what's worse is that there will be a constant avaibility of food so I'll probably just lay around and get fat fat fat. ew.

Bad Influence

So I guess I am offically a bad influence on my little sister. I let her drink some of the vodka I have hidden at my house and she was totally an idoit and drank it at my house. If theres one thing the kids in my family know it's that you never drink at our parents house because they will ground you for life. I honestly think she's doing this stuff in hopes of getting caught and spiting them. I've decided I'm no longer going to help her with this. If she wants to drink at school with me. Fine. But I'm not going to help her self destruct at home.

Frosted

Campus was frost covered this morning. It was so pretty so depressing at the same time. I hate the cold! I hate winter! I really miss my tan and just want it to be summer again. Oh well just have to get through one more semester and I hope this one is a blast =)