Coming home for winter break is a strange thing. Home life and College life are two very different things and living one means putting the other on hold. This has never really set in since I was living my College life for about four months with only a couple weekends at home. My highest problem is that I haven't completely divided the two and therefore while I'm living one life I have to think about how it will impact the other. Boys are the issue that arise the most. At home I have a guy that I generally always get with. We've dated on and off for about four years and when I come home we fall back into our old ways, the reason this is bad is because since we've never fully broken up, while I'm at school I still feel a connection and like I owe him the courtesy of telling him if I get with another guy. I know for a fact that if I ended up getting a boyfriend at school I would feel like I cheated on him.
The strange thing about winter break is that this guy and I have decided to be sort of like a temporary official couple. This is cool because then I don't have to feel like we are just friends with benefits, even though I am aware that we are way more than that. Maybe at the end of this break he will want to end things permanently and officially. I know I would be heartbroken but honestly it could be for the best, however I will never end it with him, because I do love him and don't want to let someone as great as him get away.
As for now I am living my home life, which I suppose is know my temporary life. It's the strangest feeling when your house is no longer your home.
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